There is something to be said when a person gives me food for nothing in return. Gives me nourishment, not only for my body, but for my mind. The giving rests easy on my soul. I am thankful for Uncle Pippi giving Mom, my sisters, and me, the vegetables from his garden in our Darien. Do you know how giving that is, a gift from the dirt?
The tires of my truck roll over Darien roads. I drive through town with my eyes practically shut, from Stamford, where I live, to Norwalk, where Mom has lived for the past eighteen years. She is a part of my daily life.
We run errands in our Darien – to the pharmacy, where I get her medication prescriptions, a thrift store, where we check out bargain deals for knick-knacks, a consignment shop, to buy clothes for my children, to Post Corner Pizza, where I lunch with Mom. Mom, the aging mother that I love, me, the Italian dutiful daughter, parading out our simple lives.
Back at her house, she wraps foil over a tin pie plate of my favorite Italian dish, eggplant parmigiana, and gives it to me as I sit at the kitchen table, fidget with a pill cutter to halve medications and sort them in a pill box for the week. I go through her mail, take the bills to pay later, wash the dishes in the sink.
“Heat the eggplant up for supper,” said Mom, as I ready to head home. She is thankful with her food.
“Thanks, Mom.”
I take her gift, knowing that I will not gobble it down, but throw it in the garbage when I get home because it won’t taste good. She can’t cook like she used to, thinks she can, wants to, because it is who she is.
My stomach, full of dirt-fear for my aging mother, shudders as I gather dirt-courage for the unknown future that I worry about. With my weaknesses, I try to firmly believe that God has chosen me for this role. I can take the past’s beatings and betrayals, because Dear, Sweet, Jesus is in me. I am thankful for that. I am thankful for my words.